It's over when i say it is!!

Finally, after 2 weeks of endless worries, i made my choice of letting Jasper go. Don't ask me to explain... all i can say is that i can not stand his lack of sincerity anymore and i think that it is the time i call the whole thing off. Besides of feeling sad or dissapointed, i just felt pretty much relief in a way. No more burdens, no more worries and the best thing of all, i wouldn't have to waste my credit on him!!

Ah well, i had a memorable weekend. Went up to Penang with Zeck and Ayushna on Saturday and came back on Monday morning. Kel Li joined us on Sunday morning and boy, was she brave enough to hop on a bus all the way to Penang. I seriously admired her bravery. I wouldn't do that though cause i'm seriously too dependent on my friends when it comes to traveling.

Believe it or not, it was seriously my first time driving all the way up to Penang and getting lost at every turn. However, thank God that Narin was pretty much helpful and she directed me to Batu Ferringi. Was supposed to meet up with Toshio at one point but he was only allowed to meet up with me for an hour, i guess it wouldn't worth the time, so i guess we could only meet up next time. Hrmm... so what exactly did we do in Penang?

The main reason we went to Penang was because of Zeck's birthday which was last Sunday (27th of March). Thought of making something special as it was his 21st birthday. We ended up surprising him with a small little, cappucino ice-cream cake. Oh we so definately had fun when it comes to eating out at hawker stalls and spending time strolling on the beach. Not forgetting jet skiing... too bad Kel Li got to miss the fun on the first day but hey, it's cool cause we had fun just walking the night market in Batu Feringgi and eating at a hawker place near by. I'm so missing the RM2.50 Laksa and RM3.00 rojak by the road side.

Kel Li and Zeck spent the last night at my place. We shared our experience on coming close to supernatural stuff and got ourselves freaked out! We played around with the camera, posing and having *countless* shots and all. Man! it had been ages since i had so much fun. I never ever spent time with any of my school mates going for roadtrips or on vacation together. Well, just once with Carol and her parents. Went to Frasers Hill but did not have as much fun as the trip to Penang last weekend. I really hope that there are more chances to come where the 4 of us (Zeck, Ayushna, Kel Li and I) can go on a trip together again. Hopefully the next time, more people will be willing to join us and have a ball of a great time!

Suffering from leg injuries now. Well, all thanks to Aaron. Okay, i'm not suppose to blame him but what the hack, 1 hour of badminton and another hour and a half out on the tennis court, playing under the hot, afternoon sun! But hey, we pretty much had a great game. Was thinking of having a sports marathon soon, but i guess i got to wait for my right leg to recover.

Wishing i could have:
1. I want Jing Huai to be back on me birthday
2. I want Ryan Canbrera's 'True' mp3
3. I want to makan the RM2.50 Laksa once again!

Holidays... AGAIN!

“It is as near to you as your life, but you can never wholly know it”

A quote I came to love from the movie Sepet. Love - a word of true ambiguity. No one definition, but could only be defined by the one who sees love with his naked eye; to feel the feeling of love and to feel the feeling of being loved. It’s hard to maintain a relationship when one only knows the definition of love and never have the knowledge to express or to show how he felt.

I’m just sitting here again, crapping about what love means to me right now. I’m in a long distance relationship and I’m trying to focus on how I can learn independence through this period of time. I know that it is going to be tough and that I must be strong, somehow a part of me is worrying too much.

Yet again, my true nature showed today. I missed two classes, Organizational Behavior’s tutorial which I always think that it is a waste of time to even go to the lecture and the tutorial. I’ve also managed to skip Mobile Worlds’ tutorial which probably Miss Sheila wouldn’t notice as I’m not one of her favorites. Anyways, I seriously don’t know what I was up to the whole day today. My emotions were pretty unstable; at times, I could be super hyper and at the other I’m just finding myself and wish that I could be alone for the whole afternoon.

Love is nothing but a misery gainer. Well, most of you may disagree with me but I think that sometimes, I wish I could be single again. I know that I don’t have to wish for a day of single-hood once again, I could just break off with Jasper right now. However, a part of me has already been learning to love him even though he is 4 hours away from me. I made myself a promise once that when I am to start dating at the age of 20, I will then have him as my first and as my last. I want to make sure that this relationship with Jasper works out fine and that I wouldn’t have to worry so much once I get a chance to meet him during the weekends.

Oh yeah, the holidays are here again. Seriously am looking forward to the trip that I have organized for Zeck and Sang. Hopefully that Yasir, Rimla and Siong Meay would be able to come along. We will be leaving this Friday back to my hometown (Ipoh) and then on Saturday morning, we shall be leaving to Penang and will be there till Monday morning. I’m looking forward to be reunited with my family again, looking forward to see my dogs, looking forward to meeting Jeffery as he will be back for a week, and also looking forward to meeting my bf and also having a great time in Penang with Zeck and the rest of the gang.
Well, I think that it is too risky to have my thoughts entirely on how to have fun during this holiday. I need to start scheduling my study time as assignments are piling up and I wouldn’t want to have to procrastinate again this time. Not when I’m having all four difficult subjects this semester. How am I to juggle my assignments and also the fun that I hope I will get altogether? It will be a killer then.

Home by Michael Buble

Song Title: Home
Artist: Michael Buble

Another summer day has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome, but I want to go home
Maybe surrounded by a million people, I
Still feel all alone, just want to go home
Oh I miss you, you know

And I've been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
They each were a line or two, I'm fine baby, how are you
I would send them but I know that it's just not enough
My words were cold and flat and you deserve more than that

Another airplane, another sunny place
I'm lucky, I know, but I want to go home
I got to go home
Let me go home
I'm just too far from where you are
I want to come home

And I feel just like I'm living someone else's life
It's like I just stepped outside when everything was going right
And I know just why you could not come along with me
That this was not your dream, but you always believed in me

Another winter day has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome, and I want to go home
Let me go home
And I'm surrounded by a million people, I
I still feel alone
Let me go home
Oh I miss you, you know
Let me go home
I've had my run, baby I'm done
I've got to go home
Let me go home
It will all be alright
I'll be home tonight
I'm coming back home

Sepet

I must agree with Kelly that Sepet is indeed a superb movie! How many of us ever give a thought for interracial marriages? I guess we couldn’t deny the fact that many of us are there to discriminate other races and not even giving a chance to peace and harmony within our own society. Societies these days are so diverse that sometimes personal identity are hardly known. Most of us are indulge in western living that we tend to forget about our own roots, our own mother-tongue, and our own culture or even give a thought on past traditions.

Sepet is not just another feel-good entertainment or another corny, sentimental romantic movie that couples should go to. If you are thinking of having a day off just watching clichés on screen and another entertaining film, then forget about watching Sepet. I am positively certain that the director of this film is trying to send out a message to Malaysians. Everyone of us Malaysians can never deny the fact that we are staying in a multicultural society where Indians, Malays and Chinese are the three main races we mix with. How do we achieve peace and harmony? Racial discriminations were always happening and are still today. Most of the time we have our eyes closed and we go on living our bias life. Why can’t people accept the fact that Indian or not, we are born of flesh and blood? Why can’t people accept the fact that Malay or not, we share the same public transport and we walk on the same grounds? Why can’t people accept the fact that Chinese or not, we are all just human beings created by God?

The reason why I rate Sepet as a ‘must watch’ film of this month is because of the lessons we can learn from this film. What I’ve learnt is that to achieve peace among a multicultural society, all we need to do is to understand the culture of certain races and that we understand their traditions as well as respect their way of living. Stop the stereotyping by saying that Malays are well-known for their laziness and that Chinese are well-known for their illegal doings. Everything has its pros and cons. I’m sure that most of us have our own weaknesses and our own expertise. I wouldn’t stand up to say that Chinese are the best among the rest as I can start writing a list of negative things about the Chinese community and before I do so, I’m sure some of you already know. What society lacks today are comprehension and understanding of diverse cultures. Not to mention, some of us went to the extent being westernized. Because of globalization, everything to us seemed to be off boundaries and we tend to forget our roots and are fallen into the hands of ‘revolutionizing’ our way of living. It’s never wrong to receive western education but it is wrong when one starts forgetting their roots.

Sharks, I’m still awake at 3.53am and worried sick about *whosoever that comes to mind*!!. Poor boy, he’s sick and I’m not there to take good care of him. I wish we were studying in the same state, never want him to be in the same Uni. though. Ah well, whoever is in a long-distance relationship, remember that what matters most is your love towards your ‘other half’. I can’t wait to meet up with him during the one week’s break.

I am suppose to lead worship this coming Wednesday’s cell group meeting and I am not sure which Praise and Worship song should I choose. God help me!!

Audio CDs bought in SS2’s night market:

1. Michael Buble : It’s Time
2. David Foster : The Best of Me
3. Whitney Huston : Just Best

Currently feeling:

Super down and almost at the edge of breaking down as *whosoever* is sick and there’s something wrong with his bloody phone that keeps him and me from SMSing each other.

Super disappointed as I won’t be able to go to Diana Krall’s concert with KC as the tickets are bloody expensive. Not to mention, I got to skip ‘Sound of Music’… nothing comes for free right?

Blur – I am suppose to study Organizational Behaviour and get the answers ready for tutorial 2 and what am I doing? Thinking about *whosoever* all day long. Was also suppose to prepare for Authorship and Writing so that I wouldn’t put on a blur and confused look when Dr. Andrew’s lecturing.

Jittering at the moment as I’m suppose to meet up with the cell leader to practice on leading worship at about 7 hours time and I have not even prepare the song. I am suppose to send a letter to my cell facilitator and guess what, I can’t do so if I haven’t even get the songs I want the cellies to sing!!

Vietnamese class on Saturday... so not excited... why?

Vietnamese classes will be starting tomorrow and why am i not excited? It has always been my cup of tea to learn something new, especially when it comes to learning a different language. Oh well, i guess it's because of the payment and wow!! RM95 for a month. Other cellies think that it's not a problem, but, i'm seriously running out of cash!!

Ah well, be gone with the complains... guess i'll stay for only a month in that vietnamese class. Uni life will start getting hectic all over again once i start drafting out my assignments (as if i'll do so!!)

Monday and Tuesday... down the drain!!

All of a sudden, i'm back to complaining about what life is really meant to be like. Oh well, just started my 2nd year, 2nd semester yesterday and i'm already complaining when there should be nothing to complain about. I'm running scared now as i know 'Authorship and Writing' will be the toughest subject that i need to handle this semester. I'm not liking the feeling of being pressured by heavy, boring and tough readings right now.

Met up with the whole bunch yesterday and today. The happiest moments were the time i get to hug each and everyone around me. Knowing that Yasir's back to Malaysia save and sound just fend off my worries in a double.

Audrey, if you think that Aussie's hot, we Malaysians back here in Malaysia need to put on with the heat. I seriously wish i could just wear shorts and a t-shirt to school, but i think that wouldn't be nice right?

Gosh, i have no time to write poems to publish on 'Poet Sanctuary'. I just missed the good chance of summiting my poems on 'Poetry Challenge' in the forum. I guess, better luck next time!!