Thanks Fikri for recommending this wonderful song to me.
Artist : Brooke Fraser
Song Title: Arithmetic
I've been staring at the sky tonight
Marveling and passing time
Wondering what to do with daylight
Until I can make you mine
[Chorus]
You are the one I want
You are the one I want
I've been thinking of changing my mind
It never stays the same for long
But of all the things I know for sure
You're the only certain one
You are the one I want
You are the one I want
I've been counting up all my wrongs
One sorry for each star
See I'd apologise my way to you
If the heavens stretched that far
You are the one I want
You are the one I want
I won't find what I am looking for
If I only see by keeping score
'Cause I know now you are so much more than arithmetic
'Cause if I add, if I subtract if I
Give it all try to take some back
I've forgotten the freedom that comes from the fact
That you are the sum
So you are one
I want
When the years are showing on my face
And my strongest days are gone
When my heart and flesh depart this place
From a life that sung your song
You'll still be the one I want
You'll still be the one I want
You'll still be the one I want
You'll still be the one
I want
Monday, February 21, 2005
Friday, February 18, 2005
The Blues
As i was reading through my testimonials at 2am today morning, i came across a testimonial which was written by one of my really goodfriends and memories started flashing through my mind. I missed the time we had together and also the times we are apart but still being concern of each other’s whereabouts.
Dissapointed by the fact of being apart and not getting to see each other as often as we used to, tears started streaming down my cheeks as i think back of the days where my life was changed by my new found friendship with this fine young gentleman.
I wouldn't want to say it was love at first glance but it was dated back to the year i sat in his geography class just trying to look around for familiar faces. All of a sudden, my eyes fell on the gorgeous him. It wasn't just his looks i was inlove with, but the way he smile at a girl and welcoming her to sit at an empty sit next to his desk as the class was full. It was just practically breathtaking to see the way he get serious when the lecturer was to start her class the minute she walked in.
What happened after we got introduced? Greatest moment which are now lingery memories in mind started forming infront of my very eyes.
At this forbidden hour of the night; parents and siblings are sound asleep, waiting to get up in the morning and likely embrace the morning sunshine and get on with another brand new day; I'm here, sitting down in the study room just letting memories run through my mind. Thinking of thousands of 'what if' questions and hopefully to find and answer to all of them, but somehow, i'm just fooling myself. Why couldn't i accept the fact that we are not meant to be together? Why couldn't i just accept the fact that God has greater plans for me and that He's in control? In the midst of just wondering and questioning myself, suddenly, i just feel like breaking down and cry till my tears run dry and immediately turn into blood. I know i'm being silly about the whole situation, but i couldn't come close to consoling myself.
As the song 'Home' by Michael Buble started playing, i just sat back and listen prudently to the lyric and the sound of his ever so sexy voice. It was a sad song and it started my crying all over again. I just want to go “home”. I'm so tired of being inlove. I am just so tired of showing my love and what i had in return was rejection. I pretended i was fine all this while, but it was pain-striking in heart and i wouldn't want to let my emotions show as I know my friends care and I wouldn’t want to worry them with my depression.
My emotions are cold and flat now.
I never want to smile this very morning and i couldn't stand a chance to listen to the music that i had just downloaded. Every song on my playlist are sentimental and most of the singers are singing the blues tonight.
St. Valentine's Day had just come and gone. I'm glad i wished him first that night. Just to know that he cares, that is enough!
Dissapointed by the fact of being apart and not getting to see each other as often as we used to, tears started streaming down my cheeks as i think back of the days where my life was changed by my new found friendship with this fine young gentleman.
I wouldn't want to say it was love at first glance but it was dated back to the year i sat in his geography class just trying to look around for familiar faces. All of a sudden, my eyes fell on the gorgeous him. It wasn't just his looks i was inlove with, but the way he smile at a girl and welcoming her to sit at an empty sit next to his desk as the class was full. It was just practically breathtaking to see the way he get serious when the lecturer was to start her class the minute she walked in.
What happened after we got introduced? Greatest moment which are now lingery memories in mind started forming infront of my very eyes.
At this forbidden hour of the night; parents and siblings are sound asleep, waiting to get up in the morning and likely embrace the morning sunshine and get on with another brand new day; I'm here, sitting down in the study room just letting memories run through my mind. Thinking of thousands of 'what if' questions and hopefully to find and answer to all of them, but somehow, i'm just fooling myself. Why couldn't i accept the fact that we are not meant to be together? Why couldn't i just accept the fact that God has greater plans for me and that He's in control? In the midst of just wondering and questioning myself, suddenly, i just feel like breaking down and cry till my tears run dry and immediately turn into blood. I know i'm being silly about the whole situation, but i couldn't come close to consoling myself.
As the song 'Home' by Michael Buble started playing, i just sat back and listen prudently to the lyric and the sound of his ever so sexy voice. It was a sad song and it started my crying all over again. I just want to go “home”. I'm so tired of being inlove. I am just so tired of showing my love and what i had in return was rejection. I pretended i was fine all this while, but it was pain-striking in heart and i wouldn't want to let my emotions show as I know my friends care and I wouldn’t want to worry them with my depression.
My emotions are cold and flat now.
I never want to smile this very morning and i couldn't stand a chance to listen to the music that i had just downloaded. Every song on my playlist are sentimental and most of the singers are singing the blues tonight.
St. Valentine's Day had just come and gone. I'm glad i wished him first that night. Just to know that he cares, that is enough!
Monday, February 14, 2005
Death of an Infant
The air tonight,
Was covered with memories from the past,
Mixed with a pungent smell,
Death has been around,
This i could tell.
Blood dampened the cloth of an infant,
Piercing cries were ceased in the air,
Just for a moment i stood there,
Stared and perambulated the room,
Blood covered my feet,
Wasn't concious that,
I was walking on bloody sheets.
A traumatic scene i could never forget,
The air was replaced with a sudden scream,
Wasn't from my mouth,
Wasn't from within,
The baby was still crying,
How can someone do such a thing?
How could someone plunge a knife,
Through the heart of one innocent?
Standing in the center of darkness,
Nothing but a table lamp,
Crippled,
Shattered on the arctic floor.
Broken pieces of the table lamp,
Piercing through my skin,
I couldn't feel the pain,
Cuts like a knife,
Blood oozing from my sole,
Spewed endlessly onto the floor,
But i felt nothing at all.
Ran through the forest in a briskly manner,
Want to get out from where i'm at,
Through the city streets of town,
To a place i could be safe from the burden found.
Back to where i belong,
In bed with the covers up to my chin,
Comfort blankets provide warmth to my skin,
Where i sleep like a baby,
Through the night.
No more screams,
Memories erased,
Washed my hands,
Go to bed,
Sleep till morning comes.
Was covered with memories from the past,
Mixed with a pungent smell,
Death has been around,
This i could tell.
Blood dampened the cloth of an infant,
Piercing cries were ceased in the air,
Just for a moment i stood there,
Stared and perambulated the room,
Blood covered my feet,
Wasn't concious that,
I was walking on bloody sheets.
A traumatic scene i could never forget,
The air was replaced with a sudden scream,
Wasn't from my mouth,
Wasn't from within,
The baby was still crying,
How can someone do such a thing?
How could someone plunge a knife,
Through the heart of one innocent?
Standing in the center of darkness,
Nothing but a table lamp,
Crippled,
Shattered on the arctic floor.
Broken pieces of the table lamp,
Piercing through my skin,
I couldn't feel the pain,
Cuts like a knife,
Blood oozing from my sole,
Spewed endlessly onto the floor,
But i felt nothing at all.
Ran through the forest in a briskly manner,
Want to get out from where i'm at,
Through the city streets of town,
To a place i could be safe from the burden found.
Back to where i belong,
In bed with the covers up to my chin,
Comfort blankets provide warmth to my skin,
Where i sleep like a baby,
Through the night.
No more screams,
Memories erased,
Washed my hands,
Go to bed,
Sleep till morning comes.
Valentine's Day's Blues!
Let’s see, tomorrow’s Valentine’s Day. As everyone will be enjoying themselves with their loved ones, I was just sitting down here, thinking of 5 reasonable ways to go through a single life for the time being. Not everyone needs a valentine on this special occasion; I guess most of us singles need some encouragement from one another to stay happy! Below are the 5 reasonable ways that I could think of to be happily single.
5 ways to stay happily single:-
1. Hop on a bus and go travelling all over Malaysia
You might think I’m crazy but hey, it’s better than staying at home and rot. All you have to do is to hop on a bus and go to places that you really wish to visit within Malaysia. I would love to drive up to Bukit Tambun for sea food. After that, drive straight up to Bukit Ferringi and stay there until I get a phone call from my dad asking me where I’ve been the whole day!5 ways to stay happily single:-
1. Hop on a bus and go travelling all over Malaysia
2. Doing things which you have never done before.
Things I have not done before and wish that I could experience them:-
a. Eating fried or cooked dead bugs
When I was in Beijing, I seriously wanted to try them but was immediately given a warning by the tour guide as he told me that I’ll end up hospitalized for a total duration of 2 weeks.
b.Going to super cold places, for instance, the North Pole; strip naked and jump into a pile of snow?
Guess what! I was chatting with a friend of mine from Texas whom I got to know when I was studying in Taylor’s and he told me about his experience of stripping naked and getting into a pile of snow while it was -4 degrees. Speaking about going insane, he’s someone who never fails to impress me with his insanity!
c. Driving 180km/h on a freeway in any car you can get hold of.
I seriously wish to do so, but can never get the chance to cause whenever I am involve in long distance driving, my mom and dad will be in the car with me.
3. Movie Marathon
So, what are the movies you’ve missed out in 2004 and the latest films which you never had the time to watch. It’s now the time to go DVD-shopping and make sure you watch it all night long without taking your eyes off the TV screen. Forget about being a ‘gentleman’ or a ‘lady’ and getting up from your sit and letting your parents take control of the television cause it’s YOUR DAY!!
4. Sports Marathon
Something I wish I could have done more often than just once in a life which left me panting and wishing I could have 24 hours to spare in bed! Well, you can start of with getting up early in the morning (about 6am) and getting to the club for an early swim. Make sure you complete a total of 20 laps before you call it a day! Later on at about 8.30am, go for a jog in the park. Then at 10 am, have your branch and make sure you only have a bowl of salad to bite. Later on, you can go shopping until 5pm. At about 6pm, start packing your tennis racquets and go for a game of tennis. Well, after that, head to the gym until 10.30pm and retire for the night… without taking a bath *winkz*
5. Doing nothing while doing something
No explanation for this but I guess you can figure it out yourself!!
Is this promising enough to lead you to a happy single life? Well, to me, it helped pretty much. Whenever you feel lonely on Valentine’s Day, remember that you can be happily single before you find the right person to live the rest of your life with!
Back From China
I just came back from the North (China). Celebrated my Chinese New Year holidays in Beijing, Tian Jing and Sheng De and it was freaking cold. Got to experience snow the second time in life now and I guess I’ll get to experience more when I further my studies in Australia in 2006. Well, not as if snow is a good thing, but it’s pretty cool to have your hands all frozen up at the end of the day and the next thing you know is that you are screaming for hot water!!
It was pretty much an unplanned trip to Beijing. I just got to know that we were heading to Beijing one week before. Well, as usual, I’m never ever show my enthusiasm when it comes to spending my holidays in China. Some may wonder why and some may think it’s a great place to be. First of all, I wouldn’t want to criticize the country or the people, all I have to say is that, China’s not my cup of tea!
Got out in the cold and having a hard time staying awake in the car with the heater on while listening to the tour guide speak, it was amazing how I could survive a week of pure boredom. Well, come to think of it, it wasn’t a disastrous trip after all. Not like when I went to Shanghai with my parents in November 2004 where the food was terrible, and the hotel was in a bad condition. Oh, and not forgetting, the early morning call (6am – SHARP!!). Beijing wasn’t as terrible. The food was great; the places we visited were pretty much interesting; we had a really knowledgeable tour guide; stayed in a four-star hotel (Ai Hua Hotel). So if you every want to go on a vacation, remember to consider Ken-Air!
Goodbye four months of being a rotten egg and hello sufferings of the 1st semester of the 2nd year! The holidays will be coming to an end pretty soon and I am seriously looking forward to meeting friends again! It was wonderful to stay at home these holidays, but boredom was accompanying me all the while and I think it is the time to break loose from these chains. I will try my best to enjoy the studying days which will be lined up for me when Uni. reopens and hopefully I can do better than last year. I confessed that I did pretty bad during the first year as I was complaining about the studying environment in Monash but I guess all these complains are better left behind and I need to build up more on my concentration and focus more on aiming high as well as doing well.
*~ Just want to wish you all a Happy Chinese New Year ~*
It was pretty much an unplanned trip to Beijing. I just got to know that we were heading to Beijing one week before. Well, as usual, I’m never ever show my enthusiasm when it comes to spending my holidays in China. Some may wonder why and some may think it’s a great place to be. First of all, I wouldn’t want to criticize the country or the people, all I have to say is that, China’s not my cup of tea!
Got out in the cold and having a hard time staying awake in the car with the heater on while listening to the tour guide speak, it was amazing how I could survive a week of pure boredom. Well, come to think of it, it wasn’t a disastrous trip after all. Not like when I went to Shanghai with my parents in November 2004 where the food was terrible, and the hotel was in a bad condition. Oh, and not forgetting, the early morning call (6am – SHARP!!). Beijing wasn’t as terrible. The food was great; the places we visited were pretty much interesting; we had a really knowledgeable tour guide; stayed in a four-star hotel (Ai Hua Hotel). So if you every want to go on a vacation, remember to consider Ken-Air!
Goodbye four months of being a rotten egg and hello sufferings of the 1st semester of the 2nd year! The holidays will be coming to an end pretty soon and I am seriously looking forward to meeting friends again! It was wonderful to stay at home these holidays, but boredom was accompanying me all the while and I think it is the time to break loose from these chains. I will try my best to enjoy the studying days which will be lined up for me when Uni. reopens and hopefully I can do better than last year. I confessed that I did pretty bad during the first year as I was complaining about the studying environment in Monash but I guess all these complains are better left behind and I need to build up more on my concentration and focus more on aiming high as well as doing well.
*~ Just want to wish you all a Happy Chinese New Year ~*
Wednesday, February 02, 2005
Malicious Joy
Someone's been hurt by my endless laughter,
A friend who once knew me,
Turned out i'm laughing behind her back,
Goodness!I
I shouldn't be mean,
That malicious joy i'm seeing,
Within me,
My greatest fear,
Loosing the one i love.
Stop this grosteque,
monstrous behaviour this instant!
I don't want to hurt nobody,
This ungodly sickness within me,
Bluring my thoughts with sins,
Ready to to strike any moment,
Get away from me!
Shut the door in my face,
I don't want to hurt nobody,
Increase the distance between us,
So you wouldn't have to hear my laughter,
Again,
And again,
And this malicious joy within,
Comes out and strike like a living beast.
Sorry,
But i couldn't stop the nightmare from becoming,
Sorry,
That's all i want to say,
And an apology, please!
A friend who once knew me,
Turned out i'm laughing behind her back,
Goodness!I
I shouldn't be mean,
That malicious joy i'm seeing,
Within me,
My greatest fear,
Loosing the one i love.
Stop this grosteque,
monstrous behaviour this instant!
I don't want to hurt nobody,
This ungodly sickness within me,
Bluring my thoughts with sins,
Ready to to strike any moment,
Get away from me!
Shut the door in my face,
I don't want to hurt nobody,
Increase the distance between us,
So you wouldn't have to hear my laughter,
Again,
And again,
And this malicious joy within,
Comes out and strike like a living beast.
Sorry,
But i couldn't stop the nightmare from becoming,
Sorry,
That's all i want to say,
And an apology, please!
Addiction
Life is full of many unpredictable scenes. The atmosphere around you are always changing. When sadness and happiness are just momentary feelings, somehow memories looms in one's mind always. Come's to the point where i found out that a tragedy just happened in a household.
A person has a beginning and an end. How a person's life would end, is not firmly on one's choice, but God be the judge and the executioner.
I hated the evening air tonight. No wonder i wasn't in a better mood. What shocked me most is the new's i've heard.
I wouldn't want to say much, but, God do please be with her!
As i was driving in my car. I knew i had a responsibility to drive my sis back from school. I did not much complained but, tears streamed down my eyes as i recall what has been said to me.
Death... who wants it? The biggest question would be, why should it happen. I know the fundamentals, i know the christian teachings, but what i couldn't make myself comprehend:-
Can sadness be compensated with happiness rapidly?
Memories lingers in one's mind.
Noway one could every hide from the occurance of one's death and live life without looking back to the past.
As i sat here, wondering what i should approach next. There are tones of stuff i can do in my little' crib, but nothing comes to mind that i should take a break from what i'm doing now - onlining.
It has been an addiction and i could see that's becoming contagious. Yeah, this so-called 'malady' is really stiring up late, sleepless night, just chatting endlessly with a new found friend. Not just me, siblings are getting on with the addiction!
I know this sound a lil' too grotesque, but it's the truth and i seriously couldn't stop my being addicted!
A person has a beginning and an end. How a person's life would end, is not firmly on one's choice, but God be the judge and the executioner.
I hated the evening air tonight. No wonder i wasn't in a better mood. What shocked me most is the new's i've heard.
I wouldn't want to say much, but, God do please be with her!
As i was driving in my car. I knew i had a responsibility to drive my sis back from school. I did not much complained but, tears streamed down my eyes as i recall what has been said to me.
Death... who wants it? The biggest question would be, why should it happen. I know the fundamentals, i know the christian teachings, but what i couldn't make myself comprehend:-
Can sadness be compensated with happiness rapidly?
Memories lingers in one's mind.
Noway one could every hide from the occurance of one's death and live life without looking back to the past.
As i sat here, wondering what i should approach next. There are tones of stuff i can do in my little' crib, but nothing comes to mind that i should take a break from what i'm doing now - onlining.
It has been an addiction and i could see that's becoming contagious. Yeah, this so-called 'malady' is really stiring up late, sleepless night, just chatting endlessly with a new found friend. Not just me, siblings are getting on with the addiction!
I know this sound a lil' too grotesque, but it's the truth and i seriously couldn't stop my being addicted!
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
Will It
Hidden emotions from the world,
Nothing's as it seems today,
Suppressed by feelings of useless comprehension,
Sitting alone,
Silent in prayers,
Hysterical,
Outraging sanity,
Nothing but loosing one's mind,
That's how i feel tonight...
Will i feel better tomorrow?
Doubt it,
Know it,
It won't come,
Happiness just a momentary feeling,
Be gone now,
Will it?
Switching lanes,
Changing life,
Never want to see the sunlight,
Sleeping alone on a quiet street,
Waiting on peace,
So that i can get some sleep.
Will i feel better tomorrow?
Doubt it,
Know it,
Life's rumpled,
Throw it away,
It makes me sick,
Sadness,
be gone,
Will it?
Nothing's as it seems today,
Suppressed by feelings of useless comprehension,
Sitting alone,
Silent in prayers,
Hysterical,
Outraging sanity,
Nothing but loosing one's mind,
That's how i feel tonight...
Will i feel better tomorrow?
Doubt it,
Know it,
It won't come,
Happiness just a momentary feeling,
Be gone now,
Will it?
Switching lanes,
Changing life,
Never want to see the sunlight,
Sleeping alone on a quiet street,
Waiting on peace,
So that i can get some sleep.
Will i feel better tomorrow?
Doubt it,
Know it,
Life's rumpled,
Throw it away,
It makes me sick,
Sadness,
be gone,
Will it?
Sunday, January 30, 2005
Unpredictable death
The moonlight shines on the path of a street,
Silence lingers in the air as everyone's asleep.
Nothing has change since the day before,
Where suffering is still knocking on everyone's door.
Needless to say that darkness upon this land,
Where hysterical cries and endless mourns were all we can get,
Nothing can stop us from being unhappy,
As natural disasters took away casualties.
Looking back at the day where things were calm,
Everyone enjoyed themselves without a scare,
But now, everyone kept looking at their palms,
Where they had once embraced the body of deceased.
Tears kept streaming down the cheeks of survivors,
The lost onces in this catrastrophe could never be forgotten,
Prayers are said for their souls to keep,
Not even time could erase the lingering feeling of agony.
Thursday, January 27, 2005
Will Roddick Win a Grand Slam for This Year?
I was screaming my lungs out during the match between Hewitt and Nalbandian. Now, my throat's pretty soar. Couldn't wake up early for work today.. but what the hack, will not even be working after monday.
Things were heating up in the Rod Laver Arena, Melbourne yesterday while seeing Lleyton Hewitt of Australia (World No. 3) battling out with David Nalbandian. Well, it wasn't an easy match as both players were magnificent. After a long, 4 hours and 5 minutes duel on the centre court, Hewitt gave and showed his best by defeating Nalbandian 6-3, 6-2, 1-6, 3-6, 10-8. It was seriously exciting just to watch the two tennis 'veterans' giving their best. At the end of the 4hour 5mins battle, Hewitt managed to prevent the Australian Day dissapointment and cruising into the semi-finals where he will be meeting the former World No.1, Andy Roddick who's now seeded 2nd in the world.
Nothing can ever stop Roddick from showing his best. Smoothly, Roddick cruised into the semi-finals with a 6-3, 7-5, 4-1 lead while Russia's Nikolay Davydenko retired from breathing difficulties. What will be up next in the semi-finals on Friday would be a must-see match. Well-known for their dramatic matches in Grand Slam tournaments, who will win a place in the finals in this year's Australian Tennis Open 2005? Well, the Rivalry continues...
Players in the semi-finals:-
Andy Roddick Vs. Lleyton Hewitt
Marat Safin Vs. Roger Federer
Lindsey Davenport Vs. Nathalie Dechy
Things were heating up in the Rod Laver Arena, Melbourne yesterday while seeing Lleyton Hewitt of Australia (World No. 3) battling out with David Nalbandian. Well, it wasn't an easy match as both players were magnificent. After a long, 4 hours and 5 minutes duel on the centre court, Hewitt gave and showed his best by defeating Nalbandian 6-3, 6-2, 1-6, 3-6, 10-8. It was seriously exciting just to watch the two tennis 'veterans' giving their best. At the end of the 4hour 5mins battle, Hewitt managed to prevent the Australian Day dissapointment and cruising into the semi-finals where he will be meeting the former World No.1, Andy Roddick who's now seeded 2nd in the world.
Nothing can ever stop Roddick from showing his best. Smoothly, Roddick cruised into the semi-finals with a 6-3, 7-5, 4-1 lead while Russia's Nikolay Davydenko retired from breathing difficulties. What will be up next in the semi-finals on Friday would be a must-see match. Well-known for their dramatic matches in Grand Slam tournaments, who will win a place in the finals in this year's Australian Tennis Open 2005? Well, the Rivalry continues...
Players in the semi-finals:-
Andy Roddick Vs. Lleyton Hewitt
Marat Safin Vs. Roger Federer
Lindsey Davenport Vs. Nathalie Dechy
Monday, January 24, 2005
Shadow of Darkness
Nothing more than just wanting to be alone,
Where shadows surround me,
How can such friendship loose to coldness?
Whatever happens tomorrow
Just let it be!
Water of darkness flowing in my dreams,
No disturbing memories of mine seem to fade away,
Loneliness is too hard for me to bare,
What’s life without the sunlight and morning shine?
Without a simple hello from the one I care,
Sadness and hurt were left for me to mend,
No more tears can I cry as I did before,
But knowing that love's out there somewhere is enough for sure.
Nothing more than to be in a crowded room,
Surrounded by the ones that do not care for me,
What could I ever see in the eyes of a stranger?
Could sadness be comprehended by him?
The valley of dark shadows crept in the lives of unknowns,
Could they ever find peace in a world like this?
Shadows of loved ones left had been cast on the streets,
Where silence is the main purpose of the very next day.
Turn the lights down and say good night,
Never wake up till the morning light,
Sound asleep now, you better be,
Don't let the shadow of darkness feel you in.
Saturday, January 22, 2005
Beloved Winnie
Pronounced Dead at 10am on the 22 of January 2004.
"You'll always truely be missed, my beloved Winnie.
Eventhough you have left the family, but a part of you will always be kept in our hearts,
Though we may had shattered tears because of your departure,
But just the memories of you will make us smile again."
Tuesday, January 11, 2005
Australian Tennis Open 2005... Anyone up for it?
Well, well, well, i guess my weekdays would not be extremely boring now. The 2005 Australian Tennis Open would be up and running pretty soon (17 January to be exact). I am pretty much guessing now whether there would be a compertition to die for. Well, with the good players, for instance, Kim Clijsters, Justin Henin and Andy Roddick reported pulling themseleves out from the tour would sadden the hearts of many. If Roddick's sure about not competing in this year's Australian Open, i guess i'll miss seeing him doing his thing on court, but i guess there's still Roger Federer to lighten things up. Not to mention, Maria Sharapova is still on the 'hot seat' for now and i guess everyone's waiting to see her in action. Well... i'm looking forward to watch Lindsay Davenport and Anastasia Myskina in action this year. To me, they are two of the greatest women tennis players besides of Venus and Serena Williams. Hrmm... well it would not be a surprise when people start disagreeing with me. Now, I guess everyone’s favorite would be Roger Federer of Switzerland and Maria Sharapova of Russia.
Top 5 Male Tennis Players (Total points collected during the ATP Tour 2004)
Roger Federer of Switzerland – 6,335
Andy Roddick of the US – 3,655
Llyeton Hewitt of Australia – 3,590
Marat Safin of Russia – 3,060
Carlos Moya of Spain – 2,520
Top 5 Women Tennis Players (Total points collected during the WTA Tour 2004)
Lindsay Davenport of the US – 4,760 (hope she’s win this year’s Aussie Open)
Amelie Mauresmo of France – 4,546
Anastasia Myskina of Russia – 4,012 (hope she’ll beat Sharapova this year)
Maria Sharapova of Russia – 3,536
Svetiana Kuznetsova of Russia – 3,533
The above are the current rankings which are taken from the Jan/Feb 2005 Tennis Magazine. Well, I do hope this year, Myskina could shine and Lindsay Davenport could just win a grand slam!
My List of Favorite Top 5 Male Tennis Players
1. Patrick Rafter (brought victory to Australia in the 1999 Davis Cup where he was pronounced as the winner)
2. Andy Roddick (best match i've every seen was when he compete with Lleyton Hewitt of Australia, even though he lost)
3. Andre Aggassi (master of the court... well, at least to me. He's just being strategically wise)
4. Roger Federer (the next Aggassi - he's smart on court)
5. Marat Safin (never seen him live for awhile)
My List of Favorite Top 5 Women Tennis Players
1. Jennifer Capriati (best match seen - Capriati vs. Hinggis)
2. Venus Williams (best match seen - The Williams' Sister's challenge)
3. Serena Williams (best match seen - The Williams' Sister's challenge)
4. Lindsay Davenport (hope she'll win this year's Australian Tennis Open 2005)
5. Anastasia Myskina (Hope she'll get the chance to shine)
*Models-turn-ball-girls seriously need to be reconsidered. Well, I’m supporting the statement that a 14 year old kid made – “We think it’s very, very bad because in a game of tennis the center of attention should be the player, not a catwalk.” You go kiddo!
Top 5 Male Tennis Players (Total points collected during the ATP Tour 2004)
Roger Federer of Switzerland – 6,335
Andy Roddick of the US – 3,655
Llyeton Hewitt of Australia – 3,590
Marat Safin of Russia – 3,060
Carlos Moya of Spain – 2,520
Top 5 Women Tennis Players (Total points collected during the WTA Tour 2004)
Lindsay Davenport of the US – 4,760 (hope she’s win this year’s Aussie Open)
Amelie Mauresmo of France – 4,546
Anastasia Myskina of Russia – 4,012 (hope she’ll beat Sharapova this year)
Maria Sharapova of Russia – 3,536
Svetiana Kuznetsova of Russia – 3,533
The above are the current rankings which are taken from the Jan/Feb 2005 Tennis Magazine. Well, I do hope this year, Myskina could shine and Lindsay Davenport could just win a grand slam!
My List of Favorite Top 5 Male Tennis Players
1. Patrick Rafter (brought victory to Australia in the 1999 Davis Cup where he was pronounced as the winner)
2. Andy Roddick (best match i've every seen was when he compete with Lleyton Hewitt of Australia, even though he lost)
3. Andre Aggassi (master of the court... well, at least to me. He's just being strategically wise)
4. Roger Federer (the next Aggassi - he's smart on court)
5. Marat Safin (never seen him live for awhile)
My List of Favorite Top 5 Women Tennis Players
1. Jennifer Capriati (best match seen - Capriati vs. Hinggis)
2. Venus Williams (best match seen - The Williams' Sister's challenge)
3. Serena Williams (best match seen - The Williams' Sister's challenge)
4. Lindsay Davenport (hope she'll win this year's Australian Tennis Open 2005)
5. Anastasia Myskina (Hope she'll get the chance to shine)
*Models-turn-ball-girls seriously need to be reconsidered. Well, I’m supporting the statement that a 14 year old kid made – “We think it’s very, very bad because in a game of tennis the center of attention should be the player, not a catwalk.” You go kiddo!
Monday, January 10, 2005
Here I Go Again!
I told myself over and over again to just write something to update myself on what i've been going through this whole week. Well, the whole of last week to be exact. I've been busy lately... well, first of all, with work. Secondly, i seriously need to get myself off 'dreamland'. I've been day dreaming all this while about nothing much... alright, i've been dreaming about owning a BMW M5... which i know it's pretty impossible and fat chance my dad would ever get a car like that which cost a bomb!
Let's see... work sucks as usual. I seriously admire the people from church who actually are good in what they do and they enjoy their working days. Well, correct me if i'm wrong, but those people i come across in church are pretty much enjoying every moment of their working hours. Haha, maybe i am inconversant of the fact that they do complain. Well.. whatever it is, God's in control and i need to thank Him because He's the one who directed me back to my old school to help out just to pass my time. I seriously miss church and cell group as well as youth group meetings. I'm amazingly happy after hearing that our church has now began to multiply. I could see the hands of God working on His own pace and i'm glad that there are more and more teenagers joining our youth group and i do pray that God's blessing will be upon Mei Ling and the other cellies with strength and concentration in getting on with the project.
Something i started with but could not end...
Nothing keeps me hanging on to this feeling,
Where hurt is all it takes to break up a friendship,
A simple cry with tears streaming down his eyes,
Would no longer cure the the heartache inside.
Let's see... work sucks as usual. I seriously admire the people from church who actually are good in what they do and they enjoy their working days. Well, correct me if i'm wrong, but those people i come across in church are pretty much enjoying every moment of their working hours. Haha, maybe i am inconversant of the fact that they do complain. Well.. whatever it is, God's in control and i need to thank Him because He's the one who directed me back to my old school to help out just to pass my time. I seriously miss church and cell group as well as youth group meetings. I'm amazingly happy after hearing that our church has now began to multiply. I could see the hands of God working on His own pace and i'm glad that there are more and more teenagers joining our youth group and i do pray that God's blessing will be upon Mei Ling and the other cellies with strength and concentration in getting on with the project.
Something i started with but could not end...
Nothing keeps me hanging on to this feeling,
Where hurt is all it takes to break up a friendship,
A simple cry with tears streaming down his eyes,
Would no longer cure the the heartache inside.
Monday, January 03, 2005
RM10 per day... you must be kidding!
I so wish i could stay in a house like this
What a miserable morning to begin with. Firstly, i did not enjoy my early swim at 6.45am today as the pool was filled with people when it came to 7am sharp. Secondly, i went back to school to try getting myself a job and hopefully end my period of 'i feel hopeless'. Now, i seriously am considering whether i would like to work in school after i heard the amount i'll be paid daily. Oh well, for a total of 6 hours where you need to work your arse out for your principle, suddenly she told you that you are working for RM10 per day. Sharks, i should have taken the offer to work in Singapore *whisper* illegally!! Of cause, i expected more. What can a person do with RM10 per day anywayz? I demanded for RM15 per day and she said No... it's the school policy... Screw the school policy!!
Oh well, what's more interesting than to hear gossips among teachers in the principle's office, first hand? Teachers coming in and out, gossiping about a student's performance in school - it's either 'she's so weak' or 'she's intelligent' or the ever most insulting statement of all time 'she's in the hopeless class' - Give the students a break already... they are working their academic 'arse' out so that they won't be the next statistic of 'the student failures of 2005'. According to historical academic achievements in my school, we are always known as the best in terms of academic excellency. Well, this does not give the school staffs to pint-point or worse of all, criticise a student's weakness. Hey, we all have weaknesses to attain to, all you need to do is tell us... PROPERLY!
I was feeling practically exhausted after a days work and when i came home at 1.30pm, i have a lost of appetite and i did not eat much for lunch. After lunch, i went straight into my room and slept till 5pm. Oh well, tomorrow's another 'ready-to-be-straggled' day for me and i do hope i survive through out the week and not complaining!!
*RM10 per day... WHATZ THE WORLD COMING TO?
New year's here and i wish i could witness this scenery in future.
"The full use of your powers along lines of excellence." - definition of"happiness" by John F. Kennedy
It's not like there will be much to think of after a year has passed and the new year it's just at its infant level. Well, horrible and sweet memories of 2004 had somehow left a mark in everyone's life. May it be the biggest experience a person had or the horrible tsunami earthquake that left everyone shocked.
I'm sure that everyone's having their new year resolutions, especially people whom i know who are seeking to succeed in whatever they are doing now. Well, resolutions never work for me as i'm a person that goes with the flow and depend on what God wants me to achieve in the coming future.
2004 had come and gone. There are many things i regretted doing and things i wished i could have done better. For instance, working hard for my 1st semester and having an internship with a company after my 2nd semester ended. Well, what can i say, everyone knows very well the definition of pure laziness and never wanting to do anything. Oh well, this seriously made me feel hopeless in everyways but the new year is here and it is till March where Uni. starts 'breathing' again, so i guess i'll have to make an effort to get myself a job that earns a lil' income and not to think so much of a lucrative job yet.
I'm sure that everyone's having their new year resolutions, especially people whom i know who are seeking to succeed in whatever they are doing now. Well, resolutions never work for me as i'm a person that goes with the flow and depend on what God wants me to achieve in the coming future.
2004 had come and gone. There are many things i regretted doing and things i wished i could have done better. For instance, working hard for my 1st semester and having an internship with a company after my 2nd semester ended. Well, what can i say, everyone knows very well the definition of pure laziness and never wanting to do anything. Oh well, this seriously made me feel hopeless in everyways but the new year is here and it is till March where Uni. starts 'breathing' again, so i guess i'll have to make an effort to get myself a job that earns a lil' income and not to think so much of a lucrative job yet.
Sunday, January 02, 2005
Lie
The fact that everyone lies to get what they want doesn't surprise me... but what's the use of creating your own delusions of grandeur when there are people who are performing their best and beats you to the ground?
What's the truth when no one speaks about it?
What can you tell in the eyes of a liar?
What can you do when life is full of deceive?
When people are trying to bring you to the ground.
The year of lies had come and gone,
Bringing newer challengers in the year to come,
What's the use when truth isn't for us to see,
When life's just like experiencing a stormy sea.
Tomorrow is just another day for lies to unfold,
The truth can never be seen or told,
I'll just wait to see the ray of light,
When dusk comes and all I see is the pale moonlight.
Silence is just about anything this world could hold,
Sometimes you want so badly to let your feelings show,
The once ever conversation completely lost its flow,
Like a lonely person who was left to be on his own.
Tell a little white lie to get you away from trouble,
To get you free from mistakes in a double,
But what's the point in life for creating delusions,
When you know the stream of life runs dry in a second.
"A lie gets halfway around the world before the truth has a chance to get its pants on."
- Sir Winston Churchill (1874-1965)
Saturday, January 01, 2005
How would you know that it's the year 2005 when you wake up
Your friend calls you at 12am and wish you Happy New Year with a languorous tone and slams down the phone.
Your friends had a gathering at Y2K when you were stuck, sleeping at home.
You manage to wake up at 12.30am and hollered your sisters name.
You opened up 3 sms messages with the same message that goes 'Are you still awake? It's 12am!' and the next 3 sms messages will be 'Happy New Year!'
You went downstairs to make yourself a cup of coffee and greeted your dogs Happy New Year.
Anyone up for a beer?
Suddenly, someone just smsed you and says 'Happy Birthday to ME!'.
Someone calls and ask 'Hey, are you Evelyn?'
Your pet bro calls and said that he's back from wherever he went to.
You woke up at 8.30am and heard a loud knock on your bedroom door and the next thing you know was listening to your parents shouting 'Happy New Year!!'... close the door and went back to bed!
*Now that's what i call a Happy New Year!*
Your friends had a gathering at Y2K when you were stuck, sleeping at home.
You manage to wake up at 12.30am and hollered your sisters name.
You opened up 3 sms messages with the same message that goes 'Are you still awake? It's 12am!' and the next 3 sms messages will be 'Happy New Year!'
You went downstairs to make yourself a cup of coffee and greeted your dogs Happy New Year.
Anyone up for a beer?
Suddenly, someone just smsed you and says 'Happy Birthday to ME!'.
Someone calls and ask 'Hey, are you Evelyn?'
Your pet bro calls and said that he's back from wherever he went to.
You woke up at 8.30am and heard a loud knock on your bedroom door and the next thing you know was listening to your parents shouting 'Happy New Year!!'... close the door and went back to bed!
*Now that's what i call a Happy New Year!*